Where do I even begin? It has been far too long since my last post! I am still in YOU University, yes….I said I am still in YOU University!! The program is designed to take approximately 6 mths. Now some may finish slightly earlier and some, no names mentioned may take longer. But, that’s okay and I’ll tell you why. I use to worry and get real upset when people who enrolled after me, finished before me! What I have come to learn through my training and development is that I am right where I am meant to be.
Everyone’s journey is just that, their individual journey! No two people will experience their journey the same. Most important is understanding that it’s not a race, we are not competing to see who gets through the program first. I am where I am meant to be and that is perfectly okay!
The fact that I am still in training through YOU University to become a life coach, is in itself very amazing to me. You see before this life coach training program and the journaling community became a part of my life, I was a major runner!! I would be all gung ho to get right into training after training, books, teleseminar’s, etc… I really wanted to change my life for the better….or so I thought! When I would get to the part of the program, book etc… in which it was time to do the hard stuff, to look at me and my emotional baggage……….I would run!! Oh I came up with very extreme circumstances as to why I had to drop out, to convince myself I was right in doing so. All bullshit!! I didn’t want to face nor feel all of those stuffed raw emotions, I had remained numb way to long.
In any event, long story short I am still here over a year later and I did not run!! In fact, I am more excited now about graduating and beginning my own Life Coach practice than I was back then. I also know that with my life, the way it is & what goes on in it to this day, it has certainly posed a challenge for me in staying in YOU University. I am the one who is seeking change, not my family! They are comfortable living the way they do. Which amounts to constant stress, chaos & drama!!! (not for me) I can’t leave my daughter’s and grand children nor do I want to!! So, I have had to work real hard at setting & sticking to healthy boundaries for my self with my family. I have had to stop taking on their problems as my own. I had to quit doing for everyone else, what they could & should be doing for themselves. Most importantly, I had to make it crystal clear to my family just how important this journey through YOU University was/is to me and that I will not let anyone or anything interfere with this.
I have experienced healing on so many levels, learned so very much and grown wow, have I grown! Not to mention, the friendships I have found through this program and in the journaling community. My self-confidence today is far greater than a year ago!! I can tell you that the person I am today, is not the person I was over a year ago. I am more authentic, the real “ME” much more confident and I love & like myself for who I am, what I have and where I am at in my life!! No more self-loathing, no more dwelling on the past or wishing for the future….I live in the present!! I don’t wish for a different life constantly, I don’t live by default anymore either, I live by design!! How empowering is that?
Well I will end here and I will definitely get more detailed as to my experiences & changes in my next post, no I won’t wait months to post it! LOL
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